The day has come!!

I lost my V-card this morning! :P (as in Sat the 28th, not sunday while I'm supposed to be at church ahahahahaha)

First time hurt like a MOTHER FUCKER. OW. OW. OW. OWIE. GETTOFFMEYOUBUGGER kind of deal. Second time was more sore/an ache. Third time was just uncomfortable. I was surprised that I didn't hurt for the rest of the day actually ahahaha. Made sure to pee right after wards. Do I want a UTI? No, thank you very much!

Mason was really good about it. We never actually "finished", because the first time he thought I was going to cry and stopped (well, apparently I looked like I was going to scream ahahaha O.o), and then we figured we'd take breaks and ease into the whole thing. Which is really really nice of him! I have a lot of friends who have lost their virginity in the worst ways :/

And no bleeding! Yay!! :D Makes life easier for me, and Mason doesn't have to wash blood out of his sheets! Ahahaha

And YES, a condom was used. I DO NOT care if the v pill is 99% effective, I do not want a child, and I do not want a STI. :P Yes, he asked, and I flat out told him NO, and he knew not to ask/bother me again, because it AIN'T HAPPENING BOY. Ahahahaha (love you Mason, but sorry ahahaha)

THE BODY SHOP HAS BEEN CRAZY BUSY. OMG. Been interviewing people, training seasonal, putting up with retail bull crap, and had a Brinks guy close and lock the office door while he and I were in the office getting the deposit bags from the safe. Eep! (He meant no harm though. Just was hitting on me a lot. He was really cute, so I let it slide, ahahahaha)

Other than that, nothing really new with me. And no one uses LJ anymore!!! Including me! :P I go to my friends page and it's blank, because no one has written an entry in so long! :'(

Anyways, I guess that's it then!

Later!

Cloud

 I remembered the original reason I wanted to write in here!

I wanted to apologize for the last post. I shouldn't have written any of that on here. I should have gone to the person (in this case, two people) and talked to them about it face-to-face. So I'm sorry.

I was just frustrated. The straw that broke the camels back was when I saw these two people talking about me on facebook on their walls that day, and I just needed to vent.

In the end, I sorted it out. They get it, and they know when they want to be friends again, they can call me, because I was sick of having to put in all the effort to be their friend, and getting nothing but complaints back. That's not what friendship is. They know that, I made it clear.

And if you do think I am neglecting our friendship, I am so sorry. So so sorry. Friends mean everything to me, and I am honestly trying my best. I just have so many different groups of friends, and a boyfriend that I am trying to spend enough time with, so it's hard to organize my time.

Just please give me a heads up if something like this is bothering you. A "Hey, I haven't seen you in a while, I miss you." or "We NEED to hang! ASAP!" in a text would work. Or if it is a real issue, telling me face-to-face would be appreciated (which I will also do from now on. I don't need to start a war on LJ ahaha). Communication is the key theme in here if you haven't noticed XD

Anyways. That's all for now! :)

Peace-out! 

Cloud

 It's been too long! (again)

Much has happened since I wrote here last! Although none of it really LiveJournal worthy. Just Greg got MARRIED, we now have hard-wood floors everywhere in our house, I moved my room downstairs and stuff like that.

Things with Mason are awesome. :) 

... I started to write in here for a reason, but I completely forgot.

Well... I`m being( Bettie Page ) for Halloween (my friend is lending me a halter-top 50's style little red dress - because Bettie Page was well known for wearing red.)

Well, if the dress fits me... :P If not I'm just going to go as a sailor chick
 ( (something like this) ) because Dirty Pretty has a "I'm on a boat!" Theme thing. :P

Another thing... I am officially on the pill. :P Please don't tell my mother!!! :S I have not yet done the deed, but we've come pretty close. More than pretty close. Like condom on close. A couple times. :S (poor Mason ahahaha, and boy did it take will power for me to go "...uhhh, maybe we should stoooop :/ ") But I want to be on the pill for a month before I do anything. Because I do not want to get pregnant thank-you-very-much.

I think that's about it. Except for the initial reason I wrote in here, which I cannot remember for the life of me. Aaaanyways.

Peace out!!

Cloud

Fuck me.

This is annoying.

I really wish people (some people in particular) would realize that I have a life, and that I don't just spend time with Mason. If i say I'm busy, it does not mean I'm spending time with him. I don't see him a lot because he was school, and I work 40 hours a week. Honestly people. Grow up. 
For example...

Yesterday was our six month. We spent three hours together after I got off work at 10pm. That's all. No fancy dinner, just hanging out. Today, he left me roses and chocolates at my house because I had to work 11-7, and he has evening classes. I didn't even get to thank him in person, I had to thank him on the phone.

This weekend? I'm hanging with a friend all day Friday (double feature at Silvercity), saturday I work 9-5, then I have a friends bday at Uncle Glenns pub that night. Sunday, I then have a concert I'm going to. Will I get a chance to see Mason? At this persons bday for a little bit. That's it. Recently, this is a typical weekend. I have to squeeze time in to see people. Literally. I'm sorry if i'm "not trying hard enough", alright? I do have a life, and I'm trying my best.

So next time I say I'm busy, or if I haven't texted you in a while (or I would at least appreciate it when I do text you if you would reply, even if it's later, or if it's on fbook - some people have respect and fbook me later saying they ran out of $$ on their phone.) realize that it's not all about you. I have more than one close friend, I have a boyfriend that I care immensely about and I have an insane mother, all whom I have to please at the same time.

So give me a break, and don't be an asshole and tell me that I'm spending too much time with Mason, or imply that if you invite Mason to something, I'll go. Because that is complete bull shit.

Anyways.

Just had to get that off of my chest.

Peace. :P

Cloud

 It's been too long Live`journal! I have missed thee! Ahahaha
Actually, I haven't much. I don't like posting my lifes story on here as I used to. I guess I just don't want my personal life to be out there for anyone to see. It's too... personal.

I will continue to use this thing - not as frequently as I used to in high school - but for more simple updates. I figure if you want to know what's going on in more detail, or shall we say on a more intimate level, you'll just have to ask me in person.

Anyways. Brief update.

MEXICO - FUCKING AMAZING. OH MY LORDY. Can I go back now? Please? It was HOT, but so worth it... :)
 It is highly recommended by moi.

Things with Mason are going fabulously. We've had a couple spats, (one serious one where he acted like a DOUCHE, but he apologized. And I understood that he was upset/mad at the time, so it's understandable.) but we worked through them, and it seems like they even strengthened our relationship. Coming up on 6 months! Yipes! :)

No school for me. Working. Going to be job hunting. Tired of TBS. Well, not TBS specifically, I love the people, and the company is dece, but I'm tired of retail. SO, looking for a desk job! Mon-Fri, 9-5 thing!! *crosses fingers in hopes of finding one*

Uh... oh, getting hardwood floors EVERYWHERE in the house! Yay!

And I think that's about it!

Like I said, if you want more yummy details, just give me a shout. :P

Later!

Cloud

 I know, once again, never fails, I take forever to update.

Been crazy busy for the past while.

Parents were away for two and a half weeks in Portland Oregon. So, I had the house to myself! It was super nice.

I still had to work 40 hours a week, so I didn't get to do as much as I wanted while they were away, but it was still nice to have the house to myself. And considering I was working so much, I managed to visit with a lot of people! Ali's bday, Seans bday, a friends house-warming party, hung with Kurtis, Ashley, Lisa, and spent time with Mason!

So glad the crazy-ass storm didn't harm the house. That thing was insane. 

Not much else is new. Happy with work, because I am finally working 40-hours, and it looks like I will be getting a raise!!

Not going to animethon again this year. I know, I know, people wanted me to go, but I didn't want to shovel out the $25 and just sit around and hold people's crap and be bored all day. Anime just isn't my thing anymore. Hasn't been for a while. :P

Things with Mason are going well! :) He met family this Sunday at a family BBQ. They like him a lot. And it is good! :) 
We had our first squabble/argument. Not serious, well, I guess a little serious, but it ended well. (was about the fact I went to Buddy's with Lisa and Jordan, had a little too much to drink, and then one dude slapped my ass at the bar, and another guy kissed me on the forehead while on the dance floor. I wasn't wasted, but I was tipsy enough to send him dumb texts about it, and he was worried that I actually did something dumb and made out with a guy or something. But we sorted it out and he knows I didn't. Because I didn't. I would never ever ever do that. Yikes. :S)

MEXICO. THANK GOD. 18 MORE DAYS UNTIL I GO TO MEXICO BABY. FUCKIN' EH. I need a break. I know my parents were just away, but I need a break from them, from work, from Edmonton, and from some people. Some people have just been getting on my nerves recently. I just get a weird vibe like something isn't being said, or they hint at something, and it pisses me off. Probably because I'm PMSing right now (although generally, I stay well-tempered most of the time, so who knows) Yeah.

Finally dealt with the fact that I won't be going to school for a year. I kinda avoided really thinking about it until my parents left. Broke down a couple times. But now I figure I have time to just figure everything out. What I want to do with my life, where I want to be in 4-5 years. 

When I told my parents before they left, they were surprisingly supportive. Probably because I burst into tears, and also because it isn't my fault. Fucking Kings.

I think that's about it. Generally I'm really happy recently. Just a little p'd o occasionally. Which is not good, but that's my issue I guess. I'll wait till my period passes and see how it goes.

I think that is all for now though! I'll try to start updating on a more regular basis! (and fix my layout. still not happy with it.)

Cloud

Just working on the layout once again!! :P I was bored with the old one.

Should be up and running by tomorrow night!! :)

Fuck.

Things are pretty much terrible right now.

Well, except for Mason. That's good. He's the person keeping me afloat right now.

My mom caved on the curfew thing. So no more curfew. But 3 am freak outs have become the norm. I mean, it was Canada Day yesterday, and I did go out (didn't get to do what I wanted because Bell has fucked my phone service, but I'll get to that later.). So I got home late. Got to my room and there was a four page letter explaining how I'm fucking playing mind games with my mother etc. Fuck. I am not out to get you mother.

But that's not the thing that's bothering me the most.

It looks like I have to take a year off school. Please don't tell anyone yet. I still have to tell my parents. I'm slightly worried that my mother will throw something breakable at the general vicinity of my head.

Turns out Kings screwed me over. Everything was ready. My application was in, on time, I'd sent a request for transcripts to be sent to U of A at least a month before the due date.

So, time passes, whatever. I try not to think about it too much, because I have good grades, and know there shouldn't be a problem. So a couple days ago I check beartracks on th progress of my application.

Incomplete.

...What?

I frantically started checking everything, wishing it was a mistake. Nope. Kings never sent my transcripts. I emailed the U of A, and they're a big enough school that they don't give a shit. If it's late, it's late.

So, I've had some pretty shitty days recently. Cried a lot.

And Bell is telling me that I didn't pay my bill on time. I have automatic debit payments you idiots. I have the bank statement, it's fucking on time. So I pretty much can't do anything on my phone. Well, I can use the internet if I'm in a place with wireless. But that's it. Fuck. So that made me miss the fireworks last night. Which I wanted to go to with some friends.

And we were supposed to go camping tomorrow, but that's off, and there was speculation as to what was going to happen instead, but now I can't do fuck with my phone, and I haven't been on my laptop so idk what's going on. I can't even check my voice mail. Which ali left me last night, but can I call my voice mail? Nope. Fucking Bell. Assholes.

Ahhhh, can anything else happen to make things worse? Fuck. Oh wait yeah, my mom's still pissed at me and was screaming at me until I left the house. Bah.

Mason is trying to take time off work in Aug so we can go on vaca. Because I need it so badly. Just need to get out for a week and clear my head. Talking about going to Mexicooooo. Just sit on beach all day... Mmmmmmm :)

Haven't talked to the parentals about that either. We'll see how that goes tonight.

Anyways. I've done enough ranting for a lifetime.

Later.

Cloud

 Well, my parents have been away in Banff for a funeral. Sadpanda. :( Laura was an amazing person, and I'll miss her tons. I couldn't go because I would have missed 16  hours at work (which I can't afford, considering I'm not getting enough hours) and because I had an interview on Sunday for a new job.

Interview went well! :D I'm either getting a raise at TBS with 40 hours a week, or I'm leaving. I'm tired of putting with their shenanigans. :P

( Weekend details HERE! *click* )
Well, hope you enjoyed that 20 page essay on my weekend XD Sorry it was so long. The cut was needed, no? XD

Later guys!! :)

Cloud

It's been too long friends!
It really has :S

Things with TBS are looking up. I have 35 hours this week! :D (well, 10 of them on call which i was called in for, but still.)

Although I do have an interview at Anthropologie on Sunday... so we'll see. I think I'm going to go to the interview (it's a group interview, so if I was a no show, it wouldn't exactly be a big deal) and see how I like the work environment, find out what the pay is and what the discount is. :P And if they'd mind if i worked part time during school.

Other news. DANE COOK. FUCK. ME. SIDEWAYS. That mad is funny. Went to see him on Sunday at the Rexall. Wow. Good times. I seriously think I got an ab work out from that night. 

...what else.

OH! On the Victor front. He was at church on Sunday, he tried to talk to me, but I didn't let him get one word in. I just walked away. So yeah. He's still creepy, but I'm dealing. No biggie. :P

Seeing Steve was mighty awkward at first on Sunday... It was the first time we'd talked since the whole "I am a rusty heart" incident (yes, he had been avoiding church *facepalm*). I could tell he wasn't very comfortable at first, because his conversation skills seemed a lot more stilted. I love him to death, but, ahhhh, I want to be friiiends. He warmed up after a minute or so, and he became super flirty. *sighs* He told me he came by TBS a couple times in the past week to say hi, but I wasn't working. I got a flower as appreciation from the church for teaching Sunday School for a while. Steve did that stupid thing he does, saying "That's a beautiful flower" whilst staring at me with his "intense look" and not looking once at the flower. DON'T DO THAT STEVE. Please and thanks. I have a boyfriend. :P

There was other stuff I wanted to write... OH YEAH. I'm pissed off at my mom. A lot. For important reason. Very important reason. But that will get it's own post and an LJcut because it's going to be long and a lot of this - "WHAT THE FUCK, MOM, NO FUCKING WAY. HOW COULD YOU GO AND FUCKING DO THIS TO ME." and such. To be warned, it will contain a lot of swearing. :P

Things with Masonmon are good. Yes. Masonmon. He's pokemon style ahahahahaha

Sorry, I had to say it. Had to cheer myself up after I brought up the mom thing. :P

But yea, :) It's good. He's in Calgary a lot, and will be going to the Yukon for a couple 20 day stints. :( But For now seeing him on the weekends is good. :) 

I have been busy as heck recently. Last weekend was work, corporate challenge Dragon boat thing, Ali's party. Something on Saturday. This week my cousin Megan and her kid Malcolm were in town. (Malcolm is 5 months AND OMG. CAN I TAKE HIM HOME WITH ME? HE IS ALWAYS LAUGHING AND SMILING. :D). Also Lisa monsters 18th. My little Lisa is all grown up *sniffle*. Went to The Bank. The place is boring as fuck. All lame techno music and filled with 18-year-old asians. Including my other friends little sister who looks like she's turned into a whore. I am slightly worried, because I kid you not. I wouldn't be surprised if she had a tramp-stamp now. Anyways, Mason and Travis tagged a long because I didn't want to be the only person there who hadn't gone out to a club/drinking before. Lisa got wasted. Big time. Poor girl probably doesn't remember a thing. :S She is a funny drunk though, I will give you that.Then I had to work again, church, family BBQ, and Dane Cook. *PHEW*

OH OH OH, bahahaha, you did not hear about this, but Mason confessed that he had a nightmare. Twice. Of him walking into my room, and I'm doing it with a guy. He hits the guy, and spits on me, and my dad walks in and hits Mason and helps the other dude. The second time it was his best friend Travis I was sleeping with (no surprise, he's a bit of a man-whore... mainly because he's a military man who is surrounded by too much testosterone ahahaha). The spitting thing kinda made me go "Ouch!" but I found it kinda funny that he's having dreams of that nature about me XD. He said he trusts me totally, and knows I wouldn't do anything like that, but I like that he's protective of me :)

Going to see "Up" tomorrow! Super excited! 

Also tired now. Heading to bed. Night all! I will probably update again tomorrow night :)

Later! 

Cloud

VICTOR IS BACK. FUCK. ME. SIDEWAYS.

Eeeeeeeww. TT__TT

Mmkay, if he's back next week, I'm going to have to ask some people to come to church and tell him off for me once and for all. I mean, he knows I will no longer speak to him, but he still was being creepy and told me he missed seeing me today.

YUCK.

I feel like I need to take a shower after he talks to me. :S

I know, I should be sleeping, but my mom decided to talk my ear off until 2am, so I'm wide awake. Thanks, mom. :P

Acto job looks like it's not going to come through. So I'm applying at Anthropology!! :D Just opened in the mall and I know they're hiring. *crosses finger*

Uh, something I wanted to tell a lot of you folks a while back... But I wanted to tell you in person... Most of you won't care, some of you will kill me.
I tried pot for the first time. :P
Couple weeks back. Close friend of mine offered. That person wishes to remain anonymous, but this person is one of the few people I TRUST doing shit like that with. No, it was not Mason. He's tried it, but never got into it. I've known this person a long time now, so it's all good.

Honestly? It's not my cup of tea anyways. I'm just so... Well, lazy when I do it. I have NO energy for ANYTHING. I had the munchies and I didn't want to sit up and grab candy about 3 feet away from me. I did eventually, but still. XD

Yeah, so I doubt I'll do that again, even though I have a bunch of friends who want me to blaze with them now XD

Um. Ahaha, please don't kill me XD

On other news, things with Mason are good. Had out 1 month official dating yesterday (friday), which is also our two months from when we started seeing each other.

And YES, I taught him how NOT to shove your tongue down someones throat *facepalm*

He still goes to Calgary during the weekdays, but it means we don't see too much of each other and get sick of each other XD

What else... Gah, my dad's Godmother has intestinal cancer. :( She had her small intestine removed two days ago. :( Not cool, and not good. Considering she's turning 80 on June 11th, things aren't looking too awesome. But, we'll see. :/

I think there was more going on, but my brain just died. I think it even made a thudding sound as the gears stopped turning XD

Niiiight! Later!

Cloud

 Mmkay, well, I thought I'd let you all know how things are at work...

It has been pretty shitty recently. I love the people I work with so So SO much. I really do. But I'm underpaid for the work I do, I'm taken for granted and my hours and shifts are SHIT. No joke.

I'm supposed to be full time. Last week, I had 10 hours. Plus an 8 hour on call shift. Guess when those shifts were. Monday 5-10, Friday 5-10 and Saturday 12-8. Well, there goes my social life (well, not that weekend, I did manage to see some people and go see Star Trek which was nice). And what am I supposed to to on tuesday, wednesday and thursday when all the normal people in the world are WORKING.
This week, I do have 19 hours. So it's a little better. Still pretty shitty though. :( I worked today (holiday, which is time and a half at least), I work tomorrow 6-10 (FOUR HOUR SHIFT. WTF), Friday 5-10 and Saturday 6-10. WHAT THE HELL.

I talked to Miranda about it. She says she is trying to cram me in as much as possible, but she has had to cut back hours a lot recently.

So, I talked to my dad. I might get a job working for Atco doing reception work. It's not for sure. Just if they need me. But it would be a mon-friday 8-5 job. THANK THE LORD. No more annoying customers, no more people taking advantage of my work ethic that others seem to lack, and better pay.

I love love love the body shop people, but it's just been more bad than good recently. Fack. I will cry big time if I leave. Big time. But it is no longer as rewarding as it used to be. 

I don't want to get my hopes up about the Atco job though... because it's about a 50/50 chance.

Anyways. That was nice to get off my chest. Something I needed to do.

Later!
Cloud

 Work has been really frustrating recently.

I'm supposed to be FT for summer. I have 10 hours this week, and tomorrow I'm "On Call" for eight hours. WTF

YEAH. Anyways. I'm tired of complaining about it. So I'm going shut up about it. :P

As I've said earlier, Mason has to work on a project in Calgary on the weekdays, so we decided to get together after work tonight.

We were going to go to his friend Kylie's place to meet up with her and Travis, but it turned out she had a date that went later than expected.

So, we were trying to figure out what to do.
Mason came up with the idea of going to the Improv place on whyte, which I thought was a great idea! Show started at 11, ends at 1. My curfew (RIDICULOUS curfew btw) is 1 am. So I figure I'll call home now to save any worrying. I call home. Start explaining to my dad. He seems cool with it and starts explaining to my mom. She asks to come on the phone. I tell her what's going on. She sounds pissed. Majorly pissed. And I ask her if she's okay with it and she says "Well, I don't really have a choice because the decision has been made, hasn't it.". She pretty much sneered the last two words. Upon which I said "Um... okay... I'll be home at 1:30 at the latest...". And then my mom hung up.

So I talk to Mason about it, and he says that if my mom's not cool with it, it would be better to do something else. I agree, and I know my mom would be happier if I was home by one.

But it just pisses me off, because I am 19. I am an adult. I am 20 in less than a year. And does she respect that? No. Does she trust me? Fucking hell no! Why? I have no clue!!! And it's pissing me off!!! Sure her medications have put her into a better mood about 24/7, but the lack of trust is still there. 

AAAAARRGGGGG. MOOOOM, JUST LET GOOO. CUT THE FRICKEN UMBILICAL CORD. GAH.

Anyways. Mason and I went and played pool. And he showed me how to actually play properly! (No, he did not pull the move of standing behind me etc, he just showed me XD) And I'm a ton better than I thought!

It was nice to go and play pool though. It let us talk a lot more, because we don't see enough of each other :(

OH, OH! REILLY FROM SHEP WHO DATED JEANINE WAS THERE. AWKWARD. YEAH. We made brief eye-contact and he face went "WTF, HOLY SHIT, IT'S YOU, OMG, AVOIDING, AVOIDING". And I pretty much had the same look on my face XD

Mason drove me home and got me home by one!! (and yes, he still insisted on paying!! :O )  When I got home, my mom was asleep. I pointed out the time to her, and  she was happy, but then she pretty much rolled over and ignored me. I really just wanted to yell at her and ask her what the big deal was if she doesn't even really care ATM. But she was tired, and I didn't want to start anything.

BACK TO MASON.

In the car, when he drove me home. In front of my house...

THAT BOY NEEDS TO LEARN HOW TO KISS. I'm not an expert over here, but AH, slooow down!! He acts like Jim Carey in Dumb and Dumber! XD (okay, not that bad, but still.)

We even stopped kissing and he said "...yeah, we need to work on that... the timing and everything.." I went "YEAH, WE REALLY DO. PLEASE." XD

Bahahaha XD

Anyways, that's all for now. There is probably more I'm forgetting, but it's late, and I might have to work tomorrow at 12, so I should catch some sleep.

Later!!
Cloud

HIIIIIIIIIIIIIII

I'm wide awake right now. :P

Not exactly totally sober, but whateverrrrs

I met Travis finally!! (Mason's best friend)
It was Travis's going away party (he was back from Wainwright for the week, and is leaving tomorrow).
Mason told be it was a BBQ at Travis's house, and then a bunch of people showing up at Empire.
So, Mason, Travis and Lauran (yes, spelled with two a's) pick me up. Turns out, we're dropping Lauran off at her BF's, and then going to Travis's for a BBQ.

And it's just myself, Mason, Travis and Travis's parents.

UH. OKAY. :S

Thanks for the warning. Ahahahaha

Travis is a good guy though. :) And his parents are super nice :)

So dinner ended, I LOVE Travis's mom and step dad. :) His mom even gave me a big hug when I left :)

Went to Empire. And turns out Morgan is friends with Travis!!!! (girl from Shep, IDK if you guys know her... she was blonde, drama kid, really nice :) we were good friends for a while)

Met Mason's tight friend Kylie. Super super nice girl. They've known each other since grade 2(?)!!! She's not exactly the most sociable girl, but I got her to open up XD And then she called me awesome!!! :D Which made me happy!! :D Because I want to make a good impression on Mason's friends :)

I had a couple coolers, Mason had a couple beers. I had a bit of a buzz. Mason was the same I think. He seemed pretty sober... but not XD

So we're dancing... and um... how to put this...

He tells me I'm gorgeous and have an "awesome" body *FACEPALM* (I can understand why he said this, we are dancing.... or he's just thinking "BOOBIES" BAHAHAHAHAHA) and then... well... um....

... okay, it basically went like this "Clair, you're so gorgeous, you have an awesome body. I love you."

OKAY, HE WAS NOT SOBER, BUT HE WASN'T THAT DRUNK. OKAY?? I LOVE YOU??? UHHH, WOW. 

I then proceeded to chuckle and ask how drunk he was. XD

I didn't say it back (because he wasn't sober, and idk if he meant it or not, and I know I'm not there yet.)

I mean, I'm falling for him, but I'm not quite there yet...

GAHHH, I know it doesn't really mean anything when he's not entirely sober, but AWWE! It still made me heart beat a little faster :)

Anyways. Tomorrow is Mothers day, and I really need to catch some sleep. Okay, NOW, I'm tired. *crashes*

Night all! <3

Cloud

PS, PLEASE DO NOT, I REPEAT, DO NOT MENTION THIS TO HIM. I WILL KILLS YOU.  I know you guys wouldn't BUT I WANT TO MAKE SURE. KTHX

BLAH.
I don't like being sick.
Just a quick post to say I've been sick, and that's why I haven't commented on any of my flists posts or replied to comments and/or messages.
Yuck.
This cold sucks. A lot.
And I miss Mason. :( I've only seen him once since Banff, and that was for about 10 minutes (the night we were supposed to hang out just the two of us for the first time in Forever, I am sick. So he came over to see how I was doing for a bit. :) And then he went to Nordegg with 3 of his friends for a planned off-roading trip. And now he's in Calgary for work. :( I is not a happy Clair)

Anyways. You can ignore my whining now and get back to something more important. XD

Later!
Cloud

 OKAY, I AM SUPER SUPER HAPPY THAT MASON AND I ARE OFFISH NOW.

BUT FUCK. 
There are currently a couple guys who like me... one has told me, another it is blatantly obvious. (Mason even asked me if this guy had told me he liked me yet XD because it was that obvious.)

I don't like rejecting guys. Well, nice guys. Assholes I tell to go fuck themselves. But all these guys are nice!!!

And then I go on facebook....

You know how I thought Steve liked me again?

Okay, well, Steve NEVER has a facebook status. He goes on facebook, but he never EVER has a status. I've seen him with a status 3 times in total for as long as i've known him.

So last night at about 2am, my relationship status was changed to "in a relationship with Mason [last name here].

This morning, Steve's status is "Steven is a rusted heart."

OH FUCK. PLEASE. NO, STEVE, NO!! DON'T - FAAAAAAAACK. I really hope this is about someone else. I really really really do. Because I'll feel like  a bitch if it is about me... and I'm afraid it is, because there was some chemistry and there is history between us... 

WHY DO BOYS LIKE ME AT THE WORST TIMES. WHEN I LIKE BOYS, BOYS DON'T LIKE ME. WHEN I HATE BOYS, BOYS LOVE ME. WHEN I HAVE A BOY, BOYS WANT ME. WTF. NO. BAD. WHY. SHIT.

I just feel bad. I know from first hand experience that if you really really like someone, it fucking hurts when you are rejected. And I don't like to hurt people. :(

*Sigh*

Well, I've moved on, and I'm hoping he has as well. :( 

GAH.  I'm a little frustrated with guys other than Mason right now XD OH OH OH OH, AND VICTOR IS GONE FROM CHURCH! *happy dances*

KK, that's all!
Later

Cloud

 YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!
Mason and I are officially "in a relationship". Facebook status and all! :D

Yeah, it was cute when he brought it up. :)

He basically said that a girl pointed out that he was single on facebook. And that he never changes his status to in a relationship. Maybe he should change his... But... did i want to? XD It was cute. I could tell he was scared to straight up ask. XD It was cute. :)

YEAH, SO I'M A HAPPY LADY. :D

And pppppppppbbbt to you Ali. :P You said this would happen before Banff, and you were right. XD

Anyways. I'm happy! :)

NIIIIIGHT! &hearts;

Cloud

...um, just a one or two line post... I know it's late, but I was talking with Mason until about 10 minutes ago...

We were talking about Easter, and the yummy food and he suddenly said "my mom told me that you are invited as well."
Then quickly followed with "I told her that it seemed inappropriate lol" (we're talking on msn here)
okay, so, technically, I am not invited to Easter dinner, but HOLY SHIT. Either his mom really really wants him to get a girlfriend, or... well, holy, he just told me that his mom invited me to Easter dinner.
I just said something along the lines of "ahaha, yeah, i think it's a little early for me to meet your whooole family ahaha XD"
 

Sorry, it just took me by surprise. I wanted to tell someone, but no one is awake at this time.

Cloud